[ She shakes her head into his shoulder, a hard press. ]
I could not have told you what my desire was. I was confused, and terrified, and I wanted you gone, and I wanted you with me, and to never see you again, and to never see anyone else.
I was so desperate for someone to tell me what to do, and Emile did, and I believed her, and it was only afterwards that I understood what I had done.
[ Her arms tighten around his shoulders, as if she fears his leaving now. ]
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[ She shakes her head into his shoulder, a hard press. ]
I could not have told you what my desire was. I was confused, and terrified, and I wanted you gone, and I wanted you with me, and to never see you again, and to never see anyone else.
I was so desperate for someone to tell me what to do, and Emile did, and I believed her, and it was only afterwards that I understood what I had done.
[ Her arms tighten around his shoulders, as if she fears his leaving now. ]
Please do not think I blame you.