( in the moment, it had made perfect sense — byerly would not ask her questions about things she doesn't know how to answer, would not treat her with kid glove kindness that scrapes excruciatingly against raw skin, but she's so terrible at talking to him. she drifts away for a bit and forgets how frustrated she gets, remembers only: )
I only argue with people that I care about.
( but byerly is quite charming, mostly, with people who aren't gwenaëlle. and they argue every time she talks to him. and possibly, assuming that they were doing it for the same reason made about as much sense as all the other things that have gone so brilliantly for her lately.
she pulls a face, aggrieved, conscious of her own tendency to melodrama; tired of herself, tired of being suspicious of every soft place she could land and reaching for things that only make it worse instead. and then, not even committing to that. what the fuck is she doing.
if she doesn't look directly at him, he won't notice her eyes are wet, probably. )
I don't think that's actually true of everyone else? ( except she sort of did think that. except she has really struggled to learn the lesson that it is not obvious, and she isn't speaking the same language as everyone she speaks to, and the things she thinks she's communicating are half the time not what anyone else is ever hearing. )
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Date: 2021-06-09 10:44 pm (UTC)I only argue with people that I care about.
( but byerly is quite charming, mostly, with people who aren't gwenaëlle. and they argue every time she talks to him. and possibly, assuming that they were doing it for the same reason made about as much sense as all the other things that have gone so brilliantly for her lately.
she pulls a face, aggrieved, conscious of her own tendency to melodrama; tired of herself, tired of being suspicious of every soft place she could land and reaching for things that only make it worse instead. and then, not even committing to that. what the fuck is she doing.
if she doesn't look directly at him, he won't notice her eyes are wet, probably. )
I don't think that's actually true of everyone else? ( except she sort of did think that. except she has really struggled to learn the lesson that it is not obvious, and she isn't speaking the same language as everyone she speaks to, and the things she thinks she's communicating are half the time not what anyone else is ever hearing. )