[ He walks his fingers up Bastien's arms a moment, the two of them doing a poncy little strut, before he withdraws his hand to grab his coffee cup. He thinks about that a moment. And he wonders if he hates Giliana, or if he worships her, to teach Bastien that bit of wisdom - that perhaps saved him, or perhaps just made him put far too much emphasis on something rather irrelevant until it became nearly neurotic.
For his part, though - ]
Sometimes I feel like what I show people isn't me. They get to see things that confirm their suspicions, that Byerly is no one to be feared - that he's a loud fool, sharp-tongued but not anyone dangerous, but nothing substantial. Sometimes I think that the person I show to them is a complete lie. That Byerly Rutyer is actually, in his heart, a sturdy fellow - romantic but dependable, kind, just a bit melancholic. But then I find myself dizzyingly happy when I'm out reveling, so it's clear enough that that's not really the case.
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Date: 2021-07-26 02:14 am (UTC)[ He walks his fingers up Bastien's arms a moment, the two of them doing a poncy little strut, before he withdraws his hand to grab his coffee cup. He thinks about that a moment. And he wonders if he hates Giliana, or if he worships her, to teach Bastien that bit of wisdom - that perhaps saved him, or perhaps just made him put far too much emphasis on something rather irrelevant until it became nearly neurotic.
For his part, though - ]
Sometimes I feel like what I show people isn't me. They get to see things that confirm their suspicions, that Byerly is no one to be feared - that he's a loud fool, sharp-tongued but not anyone dangerous, but nothing substantial. Sometimes I think that the person I show to them is a complete lie. That Byerly Rutyer is actually, in his heart, a sturdy fellow - romantic but dependable, kind, just a bit melancholic. But then I find myself dizzyingly happy when I'm out reveling, so it's clear enough that that's not really the case.