[ And if he is not a nightmare? she wants to ask, If he is a dream of all he would be to me, if he were not so far from home? The love letter he cannot send?
He would not wish me lonely.
But she folds it up and keeps it for herself; it is a thing too fragile for the world. ]
I would give it even if you did not wish me to, if you were gone. I might wish to even were you here.
I cannot see even a mirror of you hurt, alone, and turn away. Perhaps, loved, he would recover. As I did. And you are so good I cannot think there is a you without a heart that would mourn whatever wickedness you must make to protect yourself.
[ She shakes her head a little. ]
I will still be kind, if I go. To work with them towards their freedom, as I do now. Any Tevinter I go to will be shattered after the war. It will be a good time for change there, Byerly. Perhaps the only time. And if House Asgard will acknowledge me, I will be in a position with some power to help guide such change.
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He would not wish me lonely.
But she folds it up and keeps it for herself; it is a thing too fragile for the world. ]
I would give it even if you did not wish me to, if you were gone. I might wish to even were you here.
I cannot see even a mirror of you hurt, alone, and turn away. Perhaps, loved, he would recover. As I did. And you are so good I cannot think there is a you without a heart that would mourn whatever wickedness you must make to protect yourself.
[ She shakes her head a little. ]
I will still be kind, if I go. To work with them towards their freedom, as I do now. Any Tevinter I go to will be shattered after the war. It will be a good time for change there, Byerly. Perhaps the only time. And if House Asgard will acknowledge me, I will be in a position with some power to help guide such change.