[ He intends to say it gently; it comes out, instead, as something a little wild and incredulous. One hand comes to Bastien's cheek, and By struggles to figure out where to start.
He settles on - ]
I love you. I love you - Maker, I love you so much.
[ Is this how it feels, when Byerly lets the impulse for self-flagellation overtake him? Does Bastien feel this frustration, watching him in misery, watching him heap more miseries on himself? Bastien apologizes - obviously - but rarely apologizes so ferociously, and rarely for something so very little his fault.
So he starts with: ]
I'd thought that you'd died. That I killed you when I pushed you down the stairs. And if that had been the case, I'd have - [ Exactly what Byerly would have done is perhaps - upsetting to hear. So he only says the first part. ] I'd have killed that creature, which was obviously what it wanted me to do. I -
[ He clutches tighter. ]
Thank you. For not killing it. For stopping me. And I'm so sorry for everything I said.
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Date: 2022-02-03 11:29 pm (UTC)[ He intends to say it gently; it comes out, instead, as something a little wild and incredulous. One hand comes to Bastien's cheek, and By struggles to figure out where to start.
He settles on - ]
I love you. I love you - Maker, I love you so much.
[ Is this how it feels, when Byerly lets the impulse for self-flagellation overtake him? Does Bastien feel this frustration, watching him in misery, watching him heap more miseries on himself? Bastien apologizes - obviously - but rarely apologizes so ferociously, and rarely for something so very little his fault.
So he starts with: ]
I'd thought that you'd died. That I killed you when I pushed you down the stairs. And if that had been the case, I'd have - [ Exactly what Byerly would have done is perhaps - upsetting to hear. So he only says the first part. ] I'd have killed that creature, which was obviously what it wanted me to do. I -
[ He clutches tighter. ]
Thank you. For not killing it. For stopping me. And I'm so sorry for everything I said.