[ Bastien doesn’t resist By moving back, but his hands stay where they are, ready to resist if he tries to get out of bed. He wouldn’t, right? Not over this. But in case. ]
It wasn’t his fault. We were friends. [ It’s possible Bastien has a pattern, if two can be a pattern. ] He never promised me more than that. It was my fault, thinking I could earn him if I did enough. That’s not how it works.
[ He’s had years to explain this to himself already. Neat and pat. However, ]
I guess he could have said something sooner. He did know,
[ is a new addition. A concession to try to keep Byerly from moving any further away. He hasn’t thought it through, and hearing it come out of his mouth—it’s true, and it makes his gut crumple like paper.
Take the secret out of secret hopeful yearning, and it isn’t romantic anymore. It’s pathetic. Really pathetic, talk pityingly behind someone’s back pathetic, not the cheerful self-deprecating sort of pathetic. ]
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Date: 2022-02-04 05:51 pm (UTC)It wasn’t his fault. We were friends. [ It’s possible Bastien has a pattern, if two can be a pattern. ] He never promised me more than that. It was my fault, thinking I could earn him if I did enough. That’s not how it works.
[ He’s had years to explain this to himself already. Neat and pat. However, ]
I guess he could have said something sooner. He did know,
[ is a new addition. A concession to try to keep Byerly from moving any further away. He hasn’t thought it through, and hearing it come out of his mouth—it’s true, and it makes his gut crumple like paper.
Take the secret out of secret hopeful yearning, and it isn’t romantic anymore. It’s pathetic. Really pathetic, talk pityingly behind someone’s back pathetic, not the cheerful self-deprecating sort of pathetic. ]