Mm. I bet there's not a single pervert among them. You could write things that are outre, and they'd sigh and ask for things where people act more normal.
[ Bastien will not, of course, be writing pornography. His darling will be writing political tracts, and they will change the world. But it's funnier to talk about smut.
And he needs a bit of levity. Because the next thing is hard to say. He doesn't meet Bastien's eyes when he says it, and his voice is so casual that it comes full circle to sounding heavy again. ]
I am thinking that...Well. Death does make a fellow re-evaluate his priorities. And I wonder if I might compromise a bit. Still fight, but - Return to the life of a normal diplomat. No longer be m'sieur l'Ambassadeur.
[ It's tentative, hesitant. Guilty. Ashamed. Even suggesting it feels like cowardice. Which is absurd, because Bastien will not think him a coward for this, will not judge him, will not condemn him. But...But, well. When one of your few worthy qualities is your willingness to stand up and take responsibility, it's not hard to imagine that losing that quality will involve losing some of your worthiness, no? ]
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Date: 2023-09-20 04:16 pm (UTC)[ Bastien will not, of course, be writing pornography. His darling will be writing political tracts, and they will change the world. But it's funnier to talk about smut.
And he needs a bit of levity. Because the next thing is hard to say. He doesn't meet Bastien's eyes when he says it, and his voice is so casual that it comes full circle to sounding heavy again. ]
I am thinking that...Well. Death does make a fellow re-evaluate his priorities. And I wonder if I might compromise a bit. Still fight, but - Return to the life of a normal diplomat. No longer be m'sieur l'Ambassadeur.
[ It's tentative, hesitant. Guilty. Ashamed. Even suggesting it feels like cowardice. Which is absurd, because Bastien will not think him a coward for this, will not judge him, will not condemn him. But...But, well. When one of your few worthy qualities is your willingness to stand up and take responsibility, it's not hard to imagine that losing that quality will involve losing some of your worthiness, no? ]